This is me....making my effort

I'm not what you would call a "blogger." I'm creating this blog on behalf on my dearest friend, Baker. (I so deathly want to stay in your circle of friends and stay up on your current affairs, my love). Even now, as I'm writing this, the words are not flowing smoothly. I have found that during my previous blogging experience, my words do not flow eloquently like my dear friend, Bake. She just has a knack for writing that I will never be able to acquire. Just thinking, if would be nifty if blogs came equiped with smooth check, it would obviously enhance the flow of blogs (or at least my blogs anyway). Just something to point...I'm liking the draft auto save feature. I don't know how many times I have started a blog or have gone through the effort type an entire blog and for some reason or another MySpace had an error and all was lost. Quite possibly a reason why I have stopped blogging.

This is also my attempt to reconnect with those who I've become disconnected with...

I have been in Wilmington for about a month and a half and still......no job. I'm not sure whether to feel happy about this or a disappointment (to my parents, that is). It's no surprise to me that I've been lazy. This is something I've been dealing with since my chubby ass was sitting in front of the t.v., snacking, and waiting for my dad to get home from work, to fix me dinner. Instead of heading outside t0 play with the neighborhood kids that lived on my side of the street. I've wasted a month and a half of not studying for the GRE, and not going to fitness center get these dimples out of my ass.

Where the fuck is my motivation???

I've emailed my resume to every lab in Wilmington and the surrounding areas, although this was done two days ago instead of two months ago, but whatev. I realized a long time ago I don't want a stupid 8 to 5 job! I hated working that when I was in Greenville and I certainly know that I'm going to hate here in the Wing. After a little convincing, I've finally gotten Cody's "okay" to head to Domino's to fill out an app. I know this might not be the greatest decision or the most glamorous job, but the bills keep piling up and it's stressing me the fuck out. Believe me this is no permanent solution, just a temporary fix.

But here me out....

1. I can make mad tips quick (I asked a Domino's girl how much she makes delivering: $60 a night on avg during non-busy season and easily $120 during the busy season) - nouf said!
2. It's not an 8 to 5 job....yuck!
3. I can become very familiar with the South Wing area (something I can not do sitting inside my apartment - while Cody has the car at work all day)
4. FREE PIZZA - My favorite!!
5. Jamison II and I can become ONE again :)

I'm still finding it a little crazy that I moved to Wilmington. I never thought I would be actually living at the beach. It's definitely something I've been longing for...never thought I would actually have the balls or a reason to go through with the move. I'm glad that I did it. I'm ready to make new memories here. I want to make Wilmington now, what Greenville was back then. An awesome place to live, great new friends (and visits from my love ones), excellent concerts, and bangin watering holes. I want to become a "local". Corny...I know, but always a dream. Wilmington is a great starter place, but there are so many more awesome places at the beach.

I'm classifying this as me "finding myself" and definitely hoping to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.

Well this is definitely my first blog in quite some time....even if I get one comment, it'll be worth writing again.

I definitely hope to reconnect with those that I have lost contact with and dream of them being back into my life once again.

I miss you all and you all know who you are...